You are making me new.

things felt simple
and i thought i understood
nothing had changed? but
may was not our month.


things felt normal
and i was back in step
this would last. but
june was not our month.


things felt lonely
but hope hadn't died
but maybe it should've. and
july was not our month.


things felt possible
because i was still in control
do i ever have control? so
august was not our month.


things felt wrong
actually, everything felt wrong
me, you, life. obviously
september was not our month.


things felt quiet
direction seemed lost
but all is never lost? and
october was not our month.


things felt different
and i didn't know how to act
but who ever does? and
november was not our month.


things felt complicated
and i thought i couldn't trust
but maybe i should have. so
december was not our month.


things felt difficult
life never feels easy
but they tell us it won't be easy. still
january was not our month.


things felt better
but never good
will they ever be good? and
february was not our month.


things felt personal
my heart was open
but should they ever be that personal? and
march was not our month.


things feel hopeful
i am living again
maybe this will never be ours. but
april is my month.



and everything that’s new has bravely surfaced...teaching us to breathe. what was frozen through is newly purposed...turning all things green.
so it is with You and how You make me new with every season’s change...
and so it will be as You are re-creating me
summer, autumn, winter.....spring.